Sunday, August 19, 2012
Initial Goals and Thoughts
One initiative The Washington Center seems to stress is their desire for students to understand diverse or opposing perspectives. It is one thing to understand the textbook version of varying opinions; it is another thing to experience them. I come from a conservative, familial, private school, Christian background – a textbook WASP. I have spent my secondary education in public universities with minorities/international students, low-income students, students with disabilities, first-generation college students, homosexual students, and just plain liberal students. In addition, my family has housed my mentally-ill, welfare-receiving uncle for the past year. Such a mixture of influences has had an interesting effect on me which I did not fully notice until my arrival in Tampa. For example, walking into Orientation, the first thing I noticed (beside the huge line) was the lack of ethnic diversity. Most everyone was white! I had never felt so odd and agitated being in a place where most WASPs feel right at home. Furthermore, walking the streets of downtown we came across police making arrangements for the homeless during the convention. If we understood them correctly, they are planning to “lock them away” in hotels for the week so they aren’t seen or are a nuisance. A possible future president is coming to the city and they are going to hide an in ignorable portion of America’s problems? My uncle would be homeless if we hadn’t taken him in. It felt hypocritical. I have not had a paradigm shift or an epiphany inspiring ownership of a new hard-core ideology, but I am absolutely in a state of limbo and many questions have arisen. How’s that for experiencing diverse perspectives?
My primary goal for this entire experience is to learn. We sometimes forget to make that a goal. Specifically I want to examine this experience through the framework of leadership, such things as observing hierarchy, the use of power, how power is demonstrated/made visible, how power is allocated. I’ll be looking for it among the candidates, the delegates, the press outlets, the event organizers, and even The Washington Center staff.
Observations from the Commissioner Julie Immanuel Brown
Perhaps my thoughts can best be expressed by the email I sent to her this evening,
I am a student attending The Washington Center’s RNC Academic Seminar. I was hoping to catch you right after dismissal and exchange business cards, but I believe Tallahassee was in dire need of you.
As a young woman considering the possibility of a rather intense career choice, it was encouraging to hear you talk about your family and life that you’ve built outside of your career. I’ve felt like I’ve been at a crossroads recently. The world wants me to make decisions about my direction in life and it feels, sometimes, that there is no best-of-both-worlds, you must pick one or the other. I’m very glad to have come across someone where that is simply not the case.
I’d love to have a further discussion with you about this in your “spare time”. I know you will be rather occupied for the next few weeks, but I wanted to reach you while the memory of TWC was still fresh.
Thank you for coming today. It was very special to me.
Reading: Road to the White House, Chapter 1
Chapter 1 outlines the election process and briefly touches on the morphology of the presidential role. It also spends some time discussing the rise of parties, their importance to the system, and how they influence the process (or rule the process). They have become an indistinguishable part of the process as politician selection is becoming more about the platform and less about the candidate. It also addressed how the public’s general desire to play a role in the process helped shape the use and importance of parties. Finally, it touches on some imperfections of the Electoral College system despite its ability to involve more people. As a PR major, the portion I found most intriguing was Wayne’s nod to how the development of communication and technology has affected the election process. I wish this had been discussed more because, quite honestly, advancements in the election history would not have been as drastic without the accompanying changes, and initiating changes, in technology and communication methods.
I asked Congressman Mickey Edwards to dance at our Welcome Reception this evening. Although he wanted to, he felt it most judicious to decline. He later friended me on Facebook and commented on my business card.
Monday, August 20, 2012
Observations from Journalist-in-Residence Aaron Brown
For me, Professor Brown’s abrasive and cynical method of communication crossed the line of humor into apathetic disrespect. The man’s credentials speak volumes and some valid points were made in his discussion this morning, but I had a very hard time being inspired by Aaron because of his delivery. This “almost thinking adult” left agitated and clouded by thoughts. He spoke primarily on the transformation of news into productions and the ludicrous pomp dedicated to current-day conventions. Aaron shared an interesting anecdote about his chaotic experience during the convention of 1968. That year, through the magnifying glass of television, the public received an unscripted and unplanned glimpse into a party that was asking for public trust. In counteraction to this event, parties have now done their best to make conventions as produced and planned as possible, a very sad turn of events for reporters and, Aaron would argue, the American public. Many such sweeping and valid statements were made.
I must remind myself to apply Aaron’s model to his statements and this experience, “check it out.” Not many people have the opportunity to check out a national convention but I plan to take full ownership of the chance and see where I can find evidence or lack thereof for Aaron’s claims.
Observations from Michael Smith, President of The Washington Center
Although it was brief, I greatly appreciated President Smith’s remarks about TWC’s desire to for students to walk away with the energy and inspiration to try larger, seemingly unreachable goals. If his students walk away empowered, he is satisfied. What a beautiful thing. Thank you, Washington Center.
Reading: Road to the White House, Chapter 4
Chapter 4 outlines the changes that have occurred in the delegate selection process. The Democratic Party made the first set of reforms. The GOP eventually followed and while they have different guidelines and selection processes, the reforms have allowed the general public to be more involved in both parties and feel wanted in participation. The system has created and strengthened the importance of primaries. However, Wayne argues that the reforms reinforce the polarization of parties and alienate a large group of moderates and independents.
Today I had the most eventful trolley ride yet. A woman entered the trolley at one of our stops and I felt I should ask her how she was doing. She responded with a story of an accident she just had at one of the trolley stops. We carried on a conversation no more than 3 minutes, but I could tell she needed it. She was headed to her job as the night shift security guard at the Florida Aquarium.
The ride ended with my standing serenade to the trolley. I sang (by request, of course) a few lines from “Orange Colored Sky” by Nat King Cole and received applause afterwards. It has been a while since my knees shook that much.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Observations from Congressman Mickey Edwards and small group
Honestly – at the moment- I am so exhausted by his topic (the party gridlock, party system’s disservice to the American populace) and the beating we gave it in small group discussion, that my original glowing support of the Congressman’s thesis has mellowed into a dazed hopelessness of realizing stalemate is all around us. Is it bad that all this talk has made me want to “just not mess with it”? I feel terrible for having such a reaction. Do politicians and scholars ever grow weary? It seems everyone around me feels so energized. What does this mean about me? Is it a sign that this is or is not for me?
I follow the Congressman’s logic. I appreciate his thesis. I want to read his book. His anecdote of rearranging the furniture is something every American should hear.
Sound bite of the day
“Currently people are ready to fire Obama, but are not ready to hire Romney.” – Dr. Michael Genovese.
I respected this layman explanation. Sometimes we forget that the Presidency is an actual job. A job like the ones for which universities drill students. We need resumes. We need experience. We have track records. We do interviews. We look the part. All the same things should apply, despite their magnification by the enormity of the position.
Reading: Road to the White House, Chapter 5
Chapter 5 addresses the issues and challenges candidates face when running for the Republican or Democratic nomination for President. Funding, appeal, organization, focus, public opinion and leadership imagery are all areas that require specific focus and strategy when building a campaign. Wayne indicates the two chief forms of primary strategy, a front-runner approach and a come-from-the-pack approach. Both have their advantages and disadvantages, but ultimately the candidate who is most popular and builds the biggest voter base is the one who wins. This tells us why the candidates usually change their approach and stance several times over the course of a campaign.
In addition, Wayne briefly highlighted the importance of current technology. I find this interesting because both the Democratic and Republican parties are doing their best to take advantage of the popular, youth-oriented technological outlets this year. The GOP will actively use Twitter during the convention and President Obama just released his Ask Me Anything account on Reddit.
Perhaps the most intriguing speaker of the day was a member of the Tampa Bay Police Department. I do not think his vivid analogy of weak, intoxicated bulls being hunted by hungry tigers in the grass will wear off shortly. He related to his audience exceptionally well. As Dr. Mena Bose and Dr. Genovese defined it, he was someone who possessed great “emotional intelligence: while being intelligent/learned, remains highly relatable to people.”
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Observations from Congressman Mickey Edwards
I felt extremely validated by the Congressman saying socializing and building relationships is a (partial) solution to the issue he is exposing. Finally! I know socializing works wonders, but no one takes that seriously! I know building relationships is the most fundamental root to solution, but that does not sound complicated enough in front of review boards! Really, the solution is simple. People need to be people. We were built for relationship. Why on earth would we ignore its role?
Observations from Professor Aaron Brown
The percentage of students in this program who have taken an advertising course is most likely the minority. Aaron’s discussion and delivery of the evolution of campaign ads was spot-on today and especially relevant to me as I have had some background in advertising. I loved the examples he showed. I appreciated he showed excellent work from both parties throughout history and he taught us the strategies within campaign advertisers have to work. He really taught today and I was envious of those students who get to spend a semester with him.
Sound bite(s) of the day
I believe in doubt. I believe in not having too much damn certitude.” – Mickey Edwards
“It’s hard to call someone a Bolshevik at noon and negotiate with him at four.” – (first heard) Aaron Brown
I find these moments related. Much of the world is missed if one is wearing blinders or only faces one wall for his/her approach to life. The second quote beautifully summarizes what I have been thinking and trying to verbalize for at least a year when addressing both my own and other peoples’ approach to tactful (or non-tactful) opinion creation and expression. When I heard it my brain literally shouted, “That’s it!” I am almost positive other people heard it.
Reading: Road to the White House, Chapter 2
Chapter 2 discusses the obvious importance of campaign finance and the transformation of money management and contribution regulation over the course of history. Legislation in the 1970s started to address the corruption and hidden figures, but it distinguished between primaries and the general selections which did not solve all the problems. Further reforms have helped equal the playing field in among candidates. Having such reforms has also increased the public’s knowledge and interest in the finance portion of campaigning. The BCRA has helped to reduced soft money, but not eliminate it. The Supreme Court decided that labor unions do not have limits on the money they can contribute to federal campaigns. Wayne closes with an impressed analysis of how much money Obama was able to raise in 2008 and a discussion of the trend in bigger funding equating to election success.
I hate fundraising. It is annoying. I think fundraising is one of the primary mental blocks I have that would keep me from running for public office.
Today I introduced myself to Dr. Mena Bose who was very familiar with UTA and friends with some of the faculty. She pulled me aside among a large group of students to inquire about a certain UTA faculty. That felt pretty awesome, like being called to the front of a line.
At the TWC Reception, I walked up behind Professor Aaron Brown who curiously had his hand tucked into the back of his pants. I simply walked up beside him, mimicked his action and made some slightly snarky introductory remark. That illuminated a thoughtful and fun conversation. In the conversation I did my best to express how special it is to sit in the audience and have these internal “ooh, aahh” moments about our speakers, their backgrounds, and their lectures but then to be able to walk up to them and, there he is with his hand tucked in his pants, as genuinely human as possible. To my final mimicking he simply embraced me much like a father and kissed my forehead. It was a cloud nine moment.
I cannot fully verbalize my appreciation for the sweet accessibility our scholars have given us to their intellectual and experiential wealth.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Midterm Assessment of Goals
This morning’s discussion between the trinity – Bose, Edwards, and Brown – further encouraged me that I am indeed on the right course in my thoughts, if not ahead of where the leadership suspects most of us are. They are individually and collectively pushing us towards what I realized was already happening internally when I arrived: exploration of viewpoints free of constraints and tactful formulation of one’s own opinion. In our small group discussion, Brown summarized succinctly what I have desired to share with colleagues of both sides. Solutions and practicality are rarely found in ideology, but the gray area. At this moment, I feel like the definition of blurry, fuzzy, floating gray. Is one ever truly anchored in their gray? Are certain pixels white and some black? What does that anchoring? Brown said today that we as students and young twenty-somethings still have so much to learn. Thank you for recognizing that! We feel so much pressure to have it all figured. That was not a demeaning statement to me; it was a relief. I am perfectly comfortable not having it all figured. I like learning. And since that is my primary goal, I think I am doing pretty well.
Observations from Lecture
I was very glad that the declining Republican Party appeal, particularity to the minorities and youth, was finally brought up in the forum today. It is an issue that has been glaring in my mind since arrival because there is a very strong chance when I get back to my university, even though it is in Texas and even though it is a stellar story, I might face some grudge because I went to the Republican National Convention. Republicans are not very popular at the diverse UTA and I have been wondering ever since arrival how to frame this story so that it still possesses some appeal and content-worth to the student body. The Republican Party has got to do the same thing. It is so obvious to me now. The Republican Party needs to start formulating and communicating updated messages. The trick is how to do this without becoming dictated by popularity in their ideological base. It is a tough question requiring a unique and wise solution, but it absolutely requires a solution even if they do win the election this year. I hope a win will not mask the fact that this still has to be addressed. The longer the wait, the larger the detriment.
Reading: Road to the White House, Chapter 6
Chapter 6 highlights topics we have danced around all week. It discusses the portion of time between when the candidate is basically picked and when he is officially picked at the convention. During this interim time the candidate has to stay visible, not do anything stupid, get a tighter grasp on his/her platform and continue to fund raise. Wayne addresses the transformation of conventions into a scripted show to arouse emotion and support and the difficulty media outlets have creating news out of such an event. He also states how their popularity has declined, but it is substantive in re-shaping a candidate in the minds of those who do choose to watch.
Friday, August 24, 2012
Observations from Dr. Michael Genovese
Dr. Genovese spoke on the antiquated process we use in Congress. He several times made the indication that our 18th century constitution was not adequate enough for the speedy processes that need to occur in the 21st century. His lecture could have been interpreted as a call for shredding the constitution. While I believe him to be a man of more forethought and decorum than that, I wish he would have clarified what exactly he thought needed to be done to reconcile the issue.
Observations from Congressman Mickey Edwards
Congressman Edwards gave a brief history on the movement of conservatism. By his definition, conservatism means limitation of the government’s powers both fiscally and socially, a libertarian protection of freedoms. Not the religious, traditionalist fighting the government and people unlike them. If people understood conservatism in the original light, and I had to give an answer right now as to what I would politically label myself, I would chose conservative. However, I am too afraid of public ignorance and opinion to shout it from the rooftop.
Sound bite of the day
“People don’t want journalism; they want to be told that they are right.” – Aaron Brown
“A strong President is different from a strong presidency.” – Mickey Edwards
Reading: Road to the White House, Chapter 3
Chapter 3 addresses the stigmas, preconceptions, and ideologies people hold steadfast when coming to the voting polls. While open-minded exploration of policies and facts is praised when making these decisions, it is rarely the case. Shocker. Wayne also uses a significant portion of the chapter to discuss voter base and the demographic appeal of each party. However, a book is not really needed to tell an educated citizen, or just an observant citizen, that generally a white Christian will vote conservative and a low-income African-American will vote liberal. Again, Wayne writes that the growing polarization of the parties is creating and offending more independent/moderate voters.
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Interview: Former Governor Robert List
The coolest part of this experience is the collection of notable people that are here. You do not have to request an audience or jump hoops to get a visit, someone will just sit next to you at the bar and he is the former Governor of Nevada and a member of the RNC Executive Board. Robert List sat right next to a friend and me while we were enjoying a glass of wine and smiled as he overheard parts of our conversation. As it was rather personal things we were chatting about, when we reached out to the him he went straight to personal things. We talked for twenty minutes about his career, his family, and faith.
The hotel bar is a treasure trove of notables! Why did I not know this before my last night at the Hyatt? I informed my fellow classmate attending the DNC of this strategy I had to figure out on my own.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
This evening I volunteered at a party honoring a former Texas Senator at the Cuban Club. As I worked the ticket will-call and bar pass table, I got an interesting view of “this kind” of party’s dynamics. The guests ranged from politicians to sponsors to compensated workers to guests. I could typically tell who was who by the different level of expectation each guest possessed as they entered. What is about people that make them crave for recognition and reward? The organizers of the party knew who they wanted to favor with that attention. I only caught glimpses – really not enough to form an analysis – just enough to wonder what it would be like to carry on a conversation with some of the people I handed tickets and bar bracelets. Tonight, I made it a point that if I ever get to be on the opposite side of that table, that I would recall this moment and its impressions. Money plays such an interesting role. You have to possess some to play the game, but how does one keep it from ruling the game? Is that even possible?
In addition, outside the general entry a protest was going on and members of the press were flashing photos and video in the rain. “Dear Diary, I had my first experience with paparazzi and high press today, even though it was at a distance.”
Monday, August 27, 2012
Reading: Road to the White House, Chapter 9
Chapter 9 opens discussing the factors that contribute to popular interest and participation in the general election. It is “dramatic, decisive, participatory, and affects future politics.” Many tests and polls have been devised to determine and calculate where public opinion lies in reference to the presidential campaign. Recently, the most important issues to voters have been the campaign’s issues and the approval of the party/candidate currently in power. This public perception of whether or not the candidate is addressing the important issues in the desired way typically is the driving force in all elections.
Tropical Storm Isaac rolled in early this morning as I arrived at the beach from fieldwork. Our bus driver was gentle-hearted and humorous. Coming from an event were affluence was rampant, in the moment that I exited his bus I realized that I want to be affluent so that I could make such a man’s evening with $100 tip. Maybe everyone starts out wanting to be affluent for that reason and spectators laugh at their naivety, but I feel very genuine about this.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
I had one of the most frustrating days I have ever experienced. This is not a place to complain so I will not. However, I will note that from now on I will do all in my power to thank, notice, and not complain to service-stationed employees and volunteers.
Interview: Su Song, Texas Delegate
I found Su in his festive Texas shirt sitting on a picnic table outside the forum Tuesday night. I went to him because Texas is an easy conversation starter and also because his disposition did not seem to reflect the cheer among the other delegates. After some talking, I discovered he was a Ron Paul supporter and was exhausted by his day of “Ron Rally.” A significant portion of Texas delegates had rallied for Ron Paul and placed a vote for his candidacy the first day of the convention. I found this interesting because Texas is rarely divided substantially in such issues. It also gave insight into convention dynamics. It was obviously already decided that Romney would be the ticket. So we had a large convening to officially decide something that was already decided? It is like sports teams that win the super bowl and automatically come onto the field with their champion gear…except worse. Su made it very clear that they were still going to do their best to see Paul’s ideas implemented. How so, he did not say and was rather annoyed with me by this time.
I am very sure my cynical perspective of the entire evening was a hilarious mental discourse, but certainly a product of my frustration during the day. While I sat in the nosebleeds watching the spectacle unfold, I realized that the convention is one massive pep rally. All conventions are simply fanatic fests! Why am I just now getting this? All these thoughts start to flood into my mind about what Aaron Brown said about the scripted spectacle. While I did not make any permanent mental decisions because of my mood, I have to say that Aaron’s argument was very real and valid to me. It felt so shallow – and I do not think that is something specific to Republicans.
How do you become somebody people will listen to?
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
It was another disappointing day of being stuck directing traffic on a street corner. I did get to see a few famous faces as they pulled their limo-tented Tahoes and Escalades or special golf-carts into the private VIP areas. As I smiled and acted my way through the day, many thoughts about what makes “a very important person” started simmering. Talent, money, prestige? They all like to know each other and pretend that they are in an exclusive club.
Interview: Jonas Davis, Iowa Delegate
Jonas was one of the very few that responded to my smile and offer to help. He actually looked me in the eye, reacted to my greeting, and there a conversation was born. He wanted to know where he could find a Starbucks. I humorously pointed to the Starbucks emblem straight ahead. Genuine humor puts people at ease. He asked if there was somewhere to kill time and I assisted him as best as possible with my handful of Floridian knowledge. His credential denoted that he was a delegate and I asked him what got him interested in the political process. For him, it’s a hobby. He is a middle class political junkie. A fanatic. I am thankful for fanatics. Their passion is necessary in our societal balance. There really is a place for everyone’s fetishes and this one just happens to visibly impact the course of our country.
It was a much better evening as I “snuck” into the empty ADA section with a perfect, lower view of the stage. When I stood cheering for Paul Ryan, I realized “O my gosh! This convention thing works!” I was excited. And then I was not sure if I should be. Was it a trap? I am not typically this cynical or devil’s advocate-like. This is not a natural persona for me. I am certainly not incapable of belief. Trust is at the core of my ideology and life. So it’s been very odd to experience this much doubt.
Condoleezza Rice was phenomenal. I will meet her one day. My mom, watching at home, remarked that some stations chose not to air her speech. I found that most unfortunate because not only is her service and experience worthy of note, she was clearly the most crowd-respected convention participant. It brought to light once more that the GOP can do their absolute best to put forth the exact message they want, but media still shapes it how they wish. Unless, you are present at the convention, you will not get purely what the GOP put forth.
The Republican Party is doing a die-hard job of trying to appeal to the minorities and women. And quite frankly, I think they have done an excellent job. The number of minorities in the party is growing and it was not fabricated as I saw many Asians, Hispanics, and Indians pass by on their way into the convention the past two days. Yes, the majority is still overwhelmingly white. The GOP’s message shaping has played largely into this billowing issue of race/lifestyle appeal that pounced on me last Sunday.
Thursday, August 27, 2012
I notified my supervisors that I had reporting for my school to do and I did not go to my directional post. Instead I spent the day actually utilizing my credentials. I got on the floor during the day which was an overwhelming experience that produced quite a bit of smiles. I was especially fascinated by the amount of media on the floor. Media members were rampant, everywhere. And they are cut-throat with each other too because they are all competing for a worthwhile story from the same empty pool.
Interview: Spanish Reporter, D.C.
I will not lie, due to the gentleman’s thick accent and lack of a business card, I was not able to remember his name, but from the descriptions of his assignments and his demeanor, you could tell he was prestigious and well experienced in his field. He works closely with CNN, but reports for Spanish news broadcasts in Mexico. We struck up a conversation about iPhone picture taking techniques and this turned into a twenty minute discussion that covered topics from worldview, philosophy, his family, my career ambitions, and his warning about the demands of his job. He has been to some exceptional places. He referenced the Middle East most often in his esteemed travel destinations/assignments. What struck me about this man is the woeful dignity with which he spoke and thought. When we talked about certain things, I felt he was just as ignorant and opinion-muddled as I was. My heart went out to him because I could sense disappointment when he would talk about certain portions of his career and experiences. I wonder. I think there are some portions of his job that have torn him apart his family, particularly his wife – maybe ex-wife? We saw each other later in the day and exchanged a very sweet nod.
Interview: Congressman Michael Burgess, TX
I requested an interview with Congressman Burgess because I worked with him in high school and he addressed my class at commencement. While I thought I perceived an attitude of obligation from him, I did appreciate meeting with him. We spoke about his personal involvement in the convention process as he had been a Newt supporter in the primaries. We talked about the dynamics of a convention and I asked him if there was an importance to the convention. He firmly stood by the position that they were a necessary portion of the process and that unity was the key outcome. When I addressed the observation that there did not seem to be many youth involved in the process, he doggedly opposed me and said that this was the most youth-friendly and youth-infused convention he had seen.
Interview: Tony Colyatayud, Radio Station operator, Miami
Tony immediately wanted to know who I was and what my goals in life were as he was very eager to share his. He proudly manages radio stations all over the nation, with 3 in Miami. Did I mention he’s very proud of his prestige in Miami? He stuck with me a while in conversation, urging me to have a specific 5-year-post-graduation- plan. I inquired what his 5-year plan was out of college. He could not answer. That was gratifying. Those kinds of “plans” are rather comical to me. I understand goals and directions, but too much changes on a daily basis to have the next five years outlined. When another dapper, expensive business man/entrepreneur intruded our conversation at one point, Tony jumped ship and neither man paid attention to the young college student who had actually initiated the entire conversation. Tony eventually came back to me after the other man left and insulted Fort Worth’s lack of culture which I heartily, respectfully, and successfully counter-acted.
I appreciated Clint Eastwood’s presence as it makes a strong mark in the public’s mind. When Hollywood gets involved, the cool factor and interest sky-rockets. Thank you, Clint for being so bold (or old enough) to not care what the rest of your peers think. Not that you had to be worried about that, you’re Clint Eastwood. (Again, what makes you somebody people will listen to?)
I would vote for Marco Rubio.
Unfortunately, Mitt Romney was the most disappointing speaker of the evening. That hurt. After this extreme, beautiful build-up of his personal character I was ready to hear from him. His personal acquaintances, friends, and colleagues spoke so highly of his humanizing and compassionate character. (The story of writing a will for the dying 14-year-old boy made me cry.) Perhaps my expectations were too high, but I perceived him as cold, distant, and disconnected. Maybe it is his expression of confidence, but they did such an outstanding job of painting him as not-the-cookie-cutter-guy. When he got up there, I felt he was the cookie-cutter-guy. I want to believe his family, friends, and colleagues! I really do! But I’ve got to see it from him as well. His final word and balloon drop was anti-climatic.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Final Assessment of Goals
My chief goal in this experience was to learn and I certainly
achieved did that. I hope learning is something I never achieve but always continue. I have not experienced an internal revolution, but a healthy dose of full exploration. I am very thankful that the program gave me an opportunity to get hands-on and close-up thought material. While I had a disappointing and unrelated fieldwork placement, I did sculpt an elaborate social experiment the related specifically to my framework of leadership observation. Conclusion: 1. Appearances dictate the initial judgment of power and leadership ability. 2. “Power” is easy to distinguish when it is hanging around your neck. People did not look at my eyes. They looked at my credentials. And they did not look my way unless I was out of COA uniform. Our generic COA uniforms made us a part of the scenery. I had hoped for something different, but it does not surprise me. It just inspires me to be out of that superficial ordinary.