I am so super excited about writing today. Why? Because I read other people’s writings yesterday and today (for the first time) and I got lots of ideas! It’s crazy how much being a part of a community of writers can have a positive effect, and inspiring effect on one’s own writing. Last time I took a writing class and had to do free writing I began by writing lots of poems, mostly using poem starters. Then I moved into stories. This time I have been sporadic (which is very unlike me). Tracy Cousino had some poem starters and list starters that I asked her to use. Here I go:
Things I want to do within 5 years
(Let me first wrap my head around this for a minute: In five years it will be Autumn 2015. My daughter will be 12 years old, starting 7th grade and my son will be 8 starting 2nd grade, Wow! My husband will be retired and we will either be living in our forever house where we will settle down, or he will be two years into doing contracting/consulting work in his current field, which means we would be in DC.)
In 5 years: 1) I want to have a current teaching license (my old one expired last Dec and I didn’t renew it). 2) Be finished with my master’s degree (that should be May 2011). 3) I would like to go back to teaching. I would love it to be part time. Half days, so that I could still be with the kids in the afternoons/evenings and keep up with the housework, but I am sure that is just a fantastical dream that I cannot find. That means I will probably be working full time. I am so scared I won’t have time for my own kids. I wonder if that’s the case. 4) This is terrible! I cannot think of any more life goals!
I used to have life goals, but I am almost done achieving them. My old goals were 1)have kids – done! 2) live abroad at least one year – done x’s 5 and 3) get my master’s degree – done in May!
What does it say about me if I don’t have life goals?
I guess it could be 1) keep raising my kids 2) keep being married 3) eventually go back to teaching. ?
Or it could be 1) live in an eco-friendly house (I would have to define that because that could be quite illusive without parameters) 2) eventually go back to teaching (I keep saying eventually because I don’t know when I want that to be. All I remember is how utterly consuming teaching was before I had kids and how utterly consuming my kids are now and I am just worried that I will not fill completely fulfilled in either if I go back while my kids are still young. Obtaining my master’s degree has been the best because I have been able to be at home with my kids AND keep close to my professional field. The idea was presented to me a few weeks ago that I could just keep going to school, earn a PhD to continue having the best of both worlds, but what does an early elementary school teacher need with a PhD? I know I don’t want to be a principal! I don’t like people complaining to me that much. Wonder if I could teach on-line somewhere, during the day, with just a Master’s degree. Wonder if there is a community college where I can be an on-line professor for a few years until my kids are at the phase where they are so busy with after school activities that they don’t get home until 5 or 6 pm anyway.
I did not intend to explore this topic today. I intended on writing a simple list.
I guess I cannot complete this list. Not yet. My husband is having an even worse kind of crisis. He retires in 3 years and he has no idea what he wants to do. I teased him the other day and asked if he wants me to buy him the book, What Color is Your Parachute. I know that he will eventually decide on a next job (I pray it will be something that I am happy with. . . Running a bar is not something I think I will be happy with.). So I guess I need to also know that eventually I will decide on my next goals.
Write a book could be a goal, but I don’t want to be one of those unemployed writers like you see in movies. I want it to just flow out of me naturally and for me to happen upon a contract with a book company. I know that life goals do not just “happen” like that. The work for this master’s degree did not just flow out of me and a school did not just happen to grant me a degree.
So, for today, by 2015 I plan:
1) Have a teaching license.
2) Have some sort of part time job related to the teaching field, possibly full time.
3) Be working towards living in a eco-friendly house (whatever that is) and a big garden. (I learned this year that I like gardening. I have a few minutes, so I will tell you about my garden this year. I planted: onions, red chili peppers, corn, tomatoes, basil, rosemary, cilantro, dill, parsley, celery seed, strawberries, cucumbers, zuccinni, squash, and mint. Then, there’s the unexpected plants that just popped up: raspberry sprigs, sunflowers, one bell pepper plant, potatoes, and more tomatoes. I am having a BLAST with it. I am canning all sorts of food for the winter like salsa, pizza sauce, stewed tomatoes, jams and jellies. Next week I think I am going to buy a bushel of apples and make applesauce. The kids love it and you cannot find unsweetened applesauce here.
Sounds like a good plan!